I decided to create a post explaining the scar I have on the left side of my nose. The reason I wanted to let you know why is because the other week one of the customers at my work pointed it out to me. Like I didn't know it was there. It kind of bugged me, I don't know why. I mean I've had it since I was a baby and it's gotten to the point where I don't even notice or remember that it's there. I guess you can say I'm a little self-conscious about it sometimes. You see it? Nowadays, I try to conceal it with concealer & foundation so it's not as prominent as when I'm not wearing any makeup. Also, if you notice, I sub-consciously pose with the right side of my face showing in pictures. I know I don't mean to do it, I just do. Call me self-conscious, tell me that it's nothing to fuss about, but deep down I know I always will. Even when friends and famiy tell me they don't even take notice to it. My mom calls it my beauty mark, HAHA, whatever that means.
This is how it all came about. I was at the computer checking on some orders for a customer on the phone and my salesguy was helping this lady at the computer next to me. She all of sudden tells me that I have eyeshadow on my nose. I start to wipe the side of my nose only to realize that she was talking about my scar.
After she left, I sat at my desk, busted out my compact to see if in fact I did have eyeshadow on the side of my nose. Nothing there except my scar.
So what is it exactly then, you ask. It is actually a scar from chicken pox or so my mom has told me. She told me that I was 6 months old or something when I had chicken pox. I really don't know when I asked my mom about it, but I know it had to have been when I was really young because I don't remember even asking her. All I remember is knowing what it was since I was really young and having to explain it to the kids at school who kept asking me about it.
I remember in 5th grade there was this mean boy who kept telling everyone that he shot me with a BB gun and that's why I have that on my nose. Yes, when you make fun of someone the memory sticks to them like glue even when they are older. HAHA!
I remember in the past looking at pictures of when I was a baby and not seeing it there so I know that it's not a birthmark. Then when I looked at pictures of when I was 2 or 3 or 4 years old, it's there. Ohhhh, now I remember. When I asked my mom about it, she told me what it was and then I went to photo albums to make sure my mom wasn't lying about me not having it when I was born. 
Also, I find it the funniest when little kids ask me about it. They'll come up to me and ask me "What's that?" And I'll tell them "What's what?" Even though I know exactly what they're talking about. So I'll tell them "Point to it" and they put their pointer finger right on the scar. Then I'll say "OHHHHH, That?" "It's a scar from chicken pox" Then they'll start the whole question/answer process. "What's chicken pox?" etc... I had that conversation twice with my two boys.
Again, most of the time, I'm not bothered by it and I've learned to live with it, but there are those times where I do fuss about it and I'm not going to lie about that.
P.S. The 2nd picture above was taken, I'm going to have to say when I was 23 years old and I had shorter hair. Should I cut my hair short again? I'm still debating if I should or not.
In Case You Are Wondering...
April 14, 2008 by Jaclyn Rose
Thoughts in Motion, Thoughts: Random
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Hey J.Rose!
I actually understand you a bit. I do also have a scar on my face, (it "cuts" my right brow) and sometimes I get comments about it as well. Mine can´t be hidden but I don´t mind at all. We are the way we are and our marks only make us more unique.
:)
Hugs!
Eru.
thanks Eru! I do appreciate your thoughtful comment. and you are definitely right about it making us more unique, I never thought of it that way. I always thought of it as a flaw. Thank you for your kind words.
I've got major chicken pox scars on my leg and the backs of my shoulders - sometimes I still get a little self-conscious when I wear sleeveless shirts and tanks, but it's better than sweating in the summer!
your hair looks really cute in that photo! I like the layers and the long-ish bangs in the front :)
Hi Mayaari, I have the same scars on my back, but they are a little bigger than the one on my nose so when summer time comes around, I know how you feel about being self-conscious, I feel the same way wearing 2 piece swimsuits or when I'm wearing halter tops that show off my back. well now that I have longer hair, I can cover it up. LOL.
I just remembered that picture was taken right after I had gotten a haircut and of course I never was able to get it to look like that after. LOL.
miss jaclyn,
i have several scars and noticeble marks on my skin that concealer/foundation can't cover up, so i totally feel the same. i'm always self contious and always will b thats just how i am.
but that customer was just plan ignorant...(no offense to ne one) but i think that was rude. ok i should shutup. who cares what ppl say ur beautiful. :)
ressa - awww thanks girl! thank you for your wonderful comment. You too are beautiful!
Hey Miss J Rose,
I thought I posted already, so sorry if I double comment.. But I really love your entry! I also have a chickenpox scar and I feel how you do sometimes too!
Thi
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Hi Thi,
Hello, thanks for commenting. Where is yours located? And how old were you when you got it? I heard that if you got it before you're 2 years old, you have a chance at getting it a second time around. Let's hope that's not right. I wonder where I heard that from. hmmm...
i agree, that customer was very rude. you just don't do that. i have a little mole on my cheek that i sometimes wish wasn't there. but i like to think of it as something that's a part of me so i just gotta accept that it's there. but girl, you are beautiful no matter what! love ya. ;)
hi lani, thx for your kind words girl. love ya too! and you are right, it is a part of who we are, we gotta get used to it right? and everyone else should too, but I guess that's not the case with some people. but we must not let them get us down, right?!
to be honest with you, i never noticed it until now. and even so, it's our own imperfections that makes us, us. :) you're gorgeous love, and don't ever question that. i actually was born with a cyst near my hairline on my forehead... people ALWAYS ask me what it is... so i have to go through the process of explaining too. it use to bother me, but it's pretty much a part of me now and i could careless. :P :D oh and i actually LOVE you with short hair. :D it suits you REALLY well. :)
Miss Jaclyn,
I never noticed until you pointed it out! Hey, I have a LOT of beauty marks/moles on my face, neck, back, arms, legs, heck I even have 'em on my hands! I have a few scars from an accident too. I still get self conscious from time to time but I know that my physical 'flaws' don't hinder my ability to recognize real kindness, wit, and beauty. Plus, my future kids will be able to play connect-the-dots on my arms, hehe ;) You're beautiful, don't pay attention to ignorant people!
christiana - sis, you are right about our imperfections making us us and no one else really taking notice because it is who we are. Thanks for your kind words.
I actually have a cyst on my back just below my neck and it's been growing bigger these past few years. I wonder what it is. I should see a doctor huh?
And yes sometimes I want to cut my hair to be that short again, but I'm not sure if I can ever part with how long it's grown since I've never had my hair this long ever in my whole life. But we'll see.
Aya, Awww... thank you for commenting on this! I do appreciate it. HAHA about your future kids. After my kids had asked me about it, they never pay attention to it anymore. My youngest son actually has a dot on his face. It's like a mole I guess but doesn't pop out from skin and he doesn't even care it's there.
hey babe,
I don't have a scar, but I do have a loottt of freckles and have heard plenty of remarks like "she would be really pretty if she didn't have freckles" and things of that sort lol. Anyway, I've read your blog for a while (love it!) and have always thought you were really pretty!
Also, that haircut is gorgeous :) I just suggested my sister do that to her hair as well :)
-valerie
Valerie - Hey sweetie. Awwww, don't pay no attention to those people who say those kinds of things. We are all beautiful in our own way. Especially when we have a good heart and good intentions.
Thank you for stopping by my blog and I appreciate your lovely comment.
Don't be shy to say hi every once in awhile =)
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